People build walls, making them perfect and then usually
interrupting the emptiness by putting images on top. What
were you expecting? It always gets filled up by something
and something is always in the way.
There’s always another thing that stops you seeing what’s
actually there. It blocks what you see. You’re in a hot
room and the heat is coming from the floor. It’s coming
from everywhere and it’s all around you but you can feel it
building underneath your feet. Hot air rises.
The walls are covered in pictures and now it’s hard to take
them in because there are so many. Object competition
can make you nauseous. The heat doesn’t help and what’s
helping the heat doesn’t either. The floor is soft and you
begin to imagine you’re sinking into it.
It’s a record of everything that’s happened in the room.
Everything that’s walked over it and impressed itself onto
its surface. All the excretions, stains, scents, spills, flakes,
scratches, burns, skids, scuffs, fluids, ash, dirt, dust and
everything that contaminated its emptiness; bacteria,
chemicals, mites, spores and lint.
You can’t see them but you can feel them in the air. Your
throat is tight and your eyes are itchy. You can’t stop
scratching. It’s still hot in the room. Is that what’s bothering
you? Or is it how dirty the floor is? The amount
of pictures? You can’t tell but you know you’re agitated.
The floor is soft and as you walk over it you feel the
sinking feeling again. This time it feels like with each step,
it becomes less likely you’ll be able to bring your feet up
again. You know it’s how you feel but you can’t tell if it’s just
your imagination.
You need to keep moving, anywhere, it doesn’t matter, you
just can’t be still. Sheep get stuck walking in circles doing
the same, sometimes for days on end. As time continues,
the grass dies off and a circular mark is revealed in the
pasture. You keep going and your pace quickens, gripped
by automatic psychology, you lose the ability to guide
yourself. Like a sheep, you pace.
The largest circle is a straight line and you’re walking it
inside a hot room covered in infinite pictures. At a certain
point amongst the heat, your sweat, the images, the soft
floor, you lose balance. You don’t quite remember the fall,
but once up again you look at your arm and notice a rash,
bright red and extending from your pinky finger to your
elbow.